Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Life: Keeping = Losing

Asher jerks back to "life--and death" (McCollum 9) when he attends to the fallen angel on his car.  In focusing on life, he automatically focuses on death too.  

I think the question, "Are you suicidal?" is a hilarious one because A) In the intended context, who isn't? and B) As if being suicidal were not necessary to stay alive. 

Every time I cross the street, I am aware that I COULD allow a car to hit me.  Maybe Auryn has been aware her entire angel existence that she could fall into traffic like she has now done.  When I cross the street, my first thought is not, "Hang on to your life! Don't let a car take it!"  One, Jesus warns against that: "Whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it" (Luke 17:33 NIV).  Two, I don't like exerting the energy to think that defensively.  Three, I wouldn't mind that much if I did get hit.  Am I hurling my body at the nearest hood?  No.  That requires great energy, too.  I'm walking across the street when it appears that no cars are coming.  I'm not running.  I'm not lying down on the yellow line.  I'm in the medium place where you are at peace and enjoy most of what you do because you feel it is optional. 

Being a tiny bit hateful of your life often gives you the motivation needed to keep it.